I will be on holidays from July 17th until Augustus 12th 2024. Messages will be answered a.s.a.p. after my holidays. Thank you for your understanding.
Ik ben op vakantie van 17 juli tot 12 augustus 2024. Berichten worden z.s.m. na mijn vakantie beantwoord. Bedankt voor je begrip.
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Michelle · November 23, 2021 at 12:39 pm
I worked on the thought, If I feel fear,
that means tha means I am weak. I noticed how I treat that part of myself who is experiencing fear and it is internal violence. There is no room for compassion or love – I beat myself with a stick. I notice without the thought, I can move forward in a state of openness and I don’t scare myself with the future images and thoughts. The power of believing this thought is that is stops me from moving forward and taking the step I want to take. I noticed that I can follow the simple directions and I understood this more deeply. In my situation that meant pressing the button on m laptop to raise my virtual hand and then wait without being in a scary movie. I also noticed in the TAs how peaceful it was to be weak. If I feel fear, I am weak. Being identified with the identity of being strong is exhausting. There was such peace in being weak whatever that meant. I noticed that If I feel fear – I am simply experiencing what I label fear. I also noticed that I am strong when I feel feel as this feels like strength as I am not running away from it or shutting it down. It feel like I am really alive as I am at my highest state of awareness of myself. It feels like the highest level of intimacy with myself and I notice that this is what I want/crave. It feels like the most connected I can be is to be the witness of the fear in me and that is strong/strength. I experienced in my work that I did not want to miss a moment or drop out of being with me when the body is fearful. I was curious to stay till the end of the passing. This is so interesting to notice. I loved this exercise and inquiry.