It’s important to keep my shameful thoughts when I believe people can’t be trusted for my wellbeing and to care about me. And I notice when I ask “do I need people to care about me” and “do I need people to accept me – to be happy and feel save?” And all people? In my experience I don’t. And still this fear is within. And this fear triggers the ‘warrior part’ in me and then I see others (also friends) as enemies.
I notice the innocence; deep desires for understanding from others and when I give that ‘need’ a compassion and space; I feel safe. It’s my own business to care about me.
What also comes up for me: “People won’t accept/care for me (when they know)” I found that this is where the big lie begins. We’re all walking around with these thoughts in our minds, and everyone pretends they’re not there. It’s insane!
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Helga Birgisdóttir · October 13, 2022 at 12:06 am
It’s important to keep my shameful thoughts when I believe people can’t be trusted for my wellbeing and to care about me. And I notice when I ask “do I need people to care about me” and “do I need people to accept me – to be happy and feel save?” And all people? In my experience I don’t. And still this fear is within. And this fear triggers the ‘warrior part’ in me and then I see others (also friends) as enemies.
I notice the innocence; deep desires for understanding from others and when I give that ‘need’ a compassion and space; I feel safe. It’s my own business to care about me.
marijketops · October 13, 2022 at 8:56 pm
What also comes up for me: “People won’t accept/care for me (when they know)” I found that this is where the big lie begins. We’re all walking around with these thoughts in our minds, and everyone pretends they’re not there. It’s insane!
Nanou Anne · October 14, 2022 at 5:47 pm
I love noticing the innocence <3