My statement: “I need freedom from my shame”
TA: “I don’t need . . . . . ” – I already have enough freedom; I’m sharing my thoughts in the class, I can live and do what ever I choose! My shameful feelings give me more understanding and compassion towards others, It’s precious for me to understand my daughter who have been so obsessed with shameful thoughts that she wanted to die. I’m there for her when she wants me to facilitate her in TW.
TA. “I need to be prisoned by my shame” – When I feel like a prisoner I find the need to BREAK the chains of pain – then I’m willing to look the monster in the eye – knowing in my heart it’s fearful little kid screaming out for love – like BK explains.
My Statement: I have to make it all better:
TA: I have to make it all worse.
This is true because I have been making it worse and worse on myself until I could look the monster in the eyes.
It’s like blowing things so out of proportion that they become ridiculous. Even m thoughts laugh at the crazy making when I can see it for what it is.
Feels like fighting ghosts
TA I don’t have to make it better:
I can’t make it better. There is nothing to do but allow.
Let it be – let my thoughts alone, let it all be there. The innocence of the “thing” – it was just a thing until the I full of thoughts showed up and took over and the war started.
Didn’t casue it, can’t cure it or control it
My thoughts have to make it all better:
Yes, my thoughts were like I knew better I can think my way out
Obsessive thinking will fix this – obsessive analyzing will fix it
My thoughts think they know what’s better or worse and they don’t know in reality
My intention: “I’ll do my best to to heal it with love and patience” – Then I got interesting suggestions (from Marijke) of some underlying beliefs – and I see I’ve believing strongly:
– ‘it’ needs healing
– I need to heal
– I am in charge of the healing
– healing is a doing
“Healing is a doing”
1. yes
2. no
3 exhausted- never enough – feeling over whelmed of all these workshops- lectures and . . . Little time for playing. I can never get it this lifetime. Tension in my body. “Do The Work for breakfast” (BK) is clinging in my mind; – judge myself lazy not DOING THAT. Confused. Hope I will be free and peaceful – in the future.
4. No pressure – pease instead. Stressful thoughts loose power. I see more clearly my thoughts are not me. Trust God. Seems i have all the time in Universe. See myself as holy and whole.
TA. “Healing is not doing”
-My state of mind often shifts just when I hear some music or meet people.
– It’s being present NOW
– Is meditation a ‘doing’? – Don’t know.
– Kindness – love – joy – laughter – crying . . . experiencing all kind of emotions are healing
5 Comments
Helga Birgisdóttir · October 20, 2022 at 12:48 am
My statement: “I need freedom from my shame”
TA: “I don’t need . . . . . ” – I already have enough freedom; I’m sharing my thoughts in the class, I can live and do what ever I choose! My shameful feelings give me more understanding and compassion towards others, It’s precious for me to understand my daughter who have been so obsessed with shameful thoughts that she wanted to die. I’m there for her when she wants me to facilitate her in TW.
TA. “I need to be prisoned by my shame” – When I feel like a prisoner I find the need to BREAK the chains of pain – then I’m willing to look the monster in the eye – knowing in my heart it’s fearful little kid screaming out for love – like BK explains.
Nanou Anne · October 21, 2022 at 1:13 pm
What a beautiful job for these shameful thoughts <3
Kim Kaufman · October 20, 2022 at 2:10 am
My Statement: I have to make it all better:
TA: I have to make it all worse.
This is true because I have been making it worse and worse on myself until I could look the monster in the eyes.
It’s like blowing things so out of proportion that they become ridiculous. Even m thoughts laugh at the crazy making when I can see it for what it is.
Feels like fighting ghosts
TA I don’t have to make it better:
I can’t make it better. There is nothing to do but allow.
Let it be – let my thoughts alone, let it all be there. The innocence of the “thing” – it was just a thing until the I full of thoughts showed up and took over and the war started.
Didn’t casue it, can’t cure it or control it
My thoughts have to make it all better:
Yes, my thoughts were like I knew better I can think my way out
Obsessive thinking will fix this – obsessive analyzing will fix it
My thoughts think they know what’s better or worse and they don’t know in reality
Nanou Anne · October 21, 2022 at 1:35 pm
What is the benefit of making it all worse?
I am seeing another turnaround: I have to make some of it better(one thought at a time, as Katie says)
Helga Birgisdóttir · October 20, 2022 at 5:47 pm
My intention: “I’ll do my best to to heal it with love and patience” – Then I got interesting suggestions (from Marijke) of some underlying beliefs – and I see I’ve believing strongly:
– ‘it’ needs healing
– I need to heal
– I am in charge of the healing
– healing is a doing
“Healing is a doing”
1. yes
2. no
3 exhausted- never enough – feeling over whelmed of all these workshops- lectures and . . . Little time for playing. I can never get it this lifetime. Tension in my body. “Do The Work for breakfast” (BK) is clinging in my mind; – judge myself lazy not DOING THAT. Confused. Hope I will be free and peaceful – in the future.
4. No pressure – pease instead. Stressful thoughts loose power. I see more clearly my thoughts are not me. Trust God. Seems i have all the time in Universe. See myself as holy and whole.
TA. “Healing is not doing”
-My state of mind often shifts just when I hear some music or meet people.
– It’s being present NOW
– Is meditation a ‘doing’? – Don’t know.
– Kindness – love – joy – laughter – crying . . . experiencing all kind of emotions are healing