I had great fun playing with this! And it was shocking to experience how I treat myself when I believe I’m vulnerable. What freedom when I’m invulnerable.
Definition of being vulnerable: I am exposed, alone, defenceless, defensive, weak, overwhelmed, dishonest, powerless, helpless, unbalanced, at risk, fragile, unsafe, uncertain, untrusting, anxious, out of my business, attached to an outcome, disconnected, ungrounded, unaware, hesitating, I feel in danger, threatened, indecisive, timid, hiding, begging for others’ love, approval, and appreciation, lacking confidence, less than, shut down, resisting, looking to the past and future for answers, unkind, judgmental, controlling, serious, uncommunicative, paralysed, non-creative, not experiencing gratitude, tense, confused.
Being invulnerable: I am visible, revealed, transparent, out in the light, unmasked, fearless, powerful, certain, constant, balanced, alive, purposeful, strong, honest, invincible, safe, certain, trusting, calm, bold, unfazed, in my business, non-attached to an outcome, connected, grounded, aware, present, unhesitating, no armour, decisive, no thought of hiding, independent, self-reliant (on my own love, approval and appreciation,) confident, open, unresisting, surrendering, free, listening, kind, wise, loving, compassionate, allowing, non-judgmental, non-controlling, curious, playful, sharing, communicative, creative, grateful, relaxed, clear.
Beautiful Cecilia! And, how does this feel as another turn-around?
Being VULNERABLE: I am visible, revealed, transparent, out in the light, unmasked, fearless, powerful, certain, constant, balanced, alive, purposeful, strong, honest, invincible, safe, certain, trusting, calm, bold, unfazed, in my business, non-attached to an outcome, connected, grounded, aware, present, unhesitating, no armour, decisive, no thought of hiding, independent, self-reliant (on my own love, approval and appreciation,) confident, open, unresisting, surrendering, free, listening, kind, wise, loving, compassionate, allowing, non-judgmental, non-controlling, curious, playful, sharing, communicative, creative, grateful, relaxed, clear.
My definition of vulnerability is
– being seen from the inside out by others
– having my armour removed
– when others see my honest thoughts/feelings
– sharing my shameful thoughts/actions
– being emotionally or physically dominated by another,
– feeling unsafe and kicked out of love.
humiliated by another
TA: My definition of vulnerability is
– not being seen from the inside out by others
– not having my armour removed
– when others don’t see my true feelings
– hiding my shameful thoughts/actions
– being emotionally or physically yielded by another,
– feeling safe and loved.
– exalted
What I have noticed here in this exercise is that my strategy to hide and stay as far away from experiencing vulnerability as I can actually keeps me vulnerable! This is insane.
All of the TA’s work for me and I can see that they sound truer. However, I can’t find this for the TA Vulnerability is feeling safe and loved. This is an interesting one and I am curious to look deeper. What is showing up for me is that the ‘feeling safe’ and ‘loved’ may be illusions and actually vulnerable from the minds perspective as I am always safe in my true nature and I am love in my true nature and so it is vulnerable to believe I feel safe and loved in the phantom self as its not real as its just a thought although I hear Katy saying that it is a good dream.
What is showing up for me here now is that ‘vulnerability’ or my definition/meaning of vulnerability appears to be crumbling in the mind as it appears to be balancing out. I love this. Vulnerability……what does this mean….. I don’t know…….I can’t be sure……..I don’t know …….no fear….. no suffering…….Vulnerability that has the I know definitions….. fear arises…… vulnerability means – my definition noted above………… Is each one true? I don’t know, I can’t know for sure as the mind has experienced some TA’s that feel truer. It is funny to see that being vulnerable is the opposite of what I thought it was. It is more vulnerable to hide than it is to be seen. Giggling….
Beautiful, Michelle! And how would these turn-arounds feel?
TA: My definition of vulnerability is
– being seen from the OUTSIDE IN by others
– not having my armour removed (as vulnerability itself is protecting you, as far you need protection)
– when I see my honest thoughts/feelings and when I see their honest thought/feelings
– sharing my thoughts/actions which I no longer consider shameful (but rather reputable, honorable, respectable, etc etc)
If you would really experience these turn-arounds as the truth, would you then be able to feel safe and loved??? I certainly would! 🙂
4 Comments
Cecilia Hollick · April 17, 2022 at 10:16 am
I had great fun playing with this! And it was shocking to experience how I treat myself when I believe I’m vulnerable. What freedom when I’m invulnerable.
Definition of being vulnerable: I am exposed, alone, defenceless, defensive, weak, overwhelmed, dishonest, powerless, helpless, unbalanced, at risk, fragile, unsafe, uncertain, untrusting, anxious, out of my business, attached to an outcome, disconnected, ungrounded, unaware, hesitating, I feel in danger, threatened, indecisive, timid, hiding, begging for others’ love, approval, and appreciation, lacking confidence, less than, shut down, resisting, looking to the past and future for answers, unkind, judgmental, controlling, serious, uncommunicative, paralysed, non-creative, not experiencing gratitude, tense, confused.
Being invulnerable: I am visible, revealed, transparent, out in the light, unmasked, fearless, powerful, certain, constant, balanced, alive, purposeful, strong, honest, invincible, safe, certain, trusting, calm, bold, unfazed, in my business, non-attached to an outcome, connected, grounded, aware, present, unhesitating, no armour, decisive, no thought of hiding, independent, self-reliant (on my own love, approval and appreciation,) confident, open, unresisting, surrendering, free, listening, kind, wise, loving, compassionate, allowing, non-judgmental, non-controlling, curious, playful, sharing, communicative, creative, grateful, relaxed, clear.
marijketops · April 22, 2022 at 11:23 am
Beautiful Cecilia! And, how does this feel as another turn-around?
Being VULNERABLE: I am visible, revealed, transparent, out in the light, unmasked, fearless, powerful, certain, constant, balanced, alive, purposeful, strong, honest, invincible, safe, certain, trusting, calm, bold, unfazed, in my business, non-attached to an outcome, connected, grounded, aware, present, unhesitating, no armour, decisive, no thought of hiding, independent, self-reliant (on my own love, approval and appreciation,) confident, open, unresisting, surrendering, free, listening, kind, wise, loving, compassionate, allowing, non-judgmental, non-controlling, curious, playful, sharing, communicative, creative, grateful, relaxed, clear.
Michelle · April 20, 2022 at 12:51 am
My definition of vulnerability is
– being seen from the inside out by others
– having my armour removed
– when others see my honest thoughts/feelings
– sharing my shameful thoughts/actions
– being emotionally or physically dominated by another,
– feeling unsafe and kicked out of love.
humiliated by another
TA: My definition of vulnerability is
– not being seen from the inside out by others
– not having my armour removed
– when others don’t see my true feelings
– hiding my shameful thoughts/actions
– being emotionally or physically yielded by another,
– feeling safe and loved.
– exalted
What I have noticed here in this exercise is that my strategy to hide and stay as far away from experiencing vulnerability as I can actually keeps me vulnerable! This is insane.
All of the TA’s work for me and I can see that they sound truer. However, I can’t find this for the TA Vulnerability is feeling safe and loved. This is an interesting one and I am curious to look deeper. What is showing up for me is that the ‘feeling safe’ and ‘loved’ may be illusions and actually vulnerable from the minds perspective as I am always safe in my true nature and I am love in my true nature and so it is vulnerable to believe I feel safe and loved in the phantom self as its not real as its just a thought although I hear Katy saying that it is a good dream.
What is showing up for me here now is that ‘vulnerability’ or my definition/meaning of vulnerability appears to be crumbling in the mind as it appears to be balancing out. I love this. Vulnerability……what does this mean….. I don’t know…….I can’t be sure……..I don’t know …….no fear….. no suffering…….Vulnerability that has the I know definitions….. fear arises…… vulnerability means – my definition noted above………… Is each one true? I don’t know, I can’t know for sure as the mind has experienced some TA’s that feel truer. It is funny to see that being vulnerable is the opposite of what I thought it was. It is more vulnerable to hide than it is to be seen. Giggling….
marijketops · April 22, 2022 at 11:37 am
Beautiful, Michelle! And how would these turn-arounds feel?
TA: My definition of vulnerability is
– being seen from the OUTSIDE IN by others
– not having my armour removed (as vulnerability itself is protecting you, as far you need protection)
– when I see my honest thoughts/feelings and when I see their honest thought/feelings
– sharing my thoughts/actions which I no longer consider shameful (but rather reputable, honorable, respectable, etc etc)
If you would really experience these turn-arounds as the truth, would you then be able to feel safe and loved??? I certainly would! 🙂